For many women, Mother’s Day is the hardest day of the year. Perhaps you are one of these women who have little to no contact with your child, outlived your child, tried unsuccessfully to conceive a child, or lost your child through a miscarriage or abortion. Just the mention of Mother’s Day brings to the surface the emotions you have long tucked away of disappointment, deep sadness, distress, dejection, and despair.
Yet you are torn because in many ways you have learned to move forward. You avoid the crowded churches, shops, and restaurants on Mother’s Day, spend time with other mothers or your mother, or even remind yourself how grateful you are to have had a child. But the heaviness in your heart is still there and despite the good moments of the day, you really can’t wait for the day to end.
Will it always be this way? Yes and no. Much like other holidays which exist for the purpose of remembering the lives that have been lost such as Memorial Day or Veterans Day, Mother’s Day will be for you a memorial of sorts. It is a day to remember what was lost or never even gained in the first place. But just as the anniversary of a person you lost brings back memories and feeling, over time, the emotions won’t be so intense.
How can I survive this day? Reserve a portion of your day for the purpose of being alone with your thoughts and feelings. Don’t take the entire day to do this or pretend that you don’t need to do it at all, instead take care of yourself and give yourself a gift of remembrance. This is a good time to journal your thoughts, allow the tears to flow, and pray. Then choose to spend your day surrounded with people who love you and are sensitive to your feelings.
What do I say to others? Be honest. If you really want to go somewhere on Mother’s Day, speak up; if you don’t, say so. If you are sad, don’t pretend that you are not. Set reasonable expectations for yourself and for others instead of assuming they already know what you are thinking or feeling. Then communicate those expectations kindly to minimize the hurt feelings later.
Why am I having anxiety over this now? Even if your loss occurred many years ago, you might find a sudden resurgence in your emotions this year compared to previous years. While the intensity may be less than the initial Mother’s Day, for some reason, this year is hitting you harder. This is perfectly normal. Take a moment to reflect on your life and see if there is any new circumstance lately in a relationship or your environment. Your increased anxiety may actually be misplaced anxiety over new things that you are not properly addressing. By addressing the new things, the old issues will subside again.
Everyone has hard days during the year that are more difficult than others to get through. Mother’s Day seems a bit crueller because everyone else appears so happy. Just remember that you are not alone in your thoughts and feelings, many other women feel the exact same way and sometimes it takes the courage of one person to say this is a hard day to make a difference in the lives of others.
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